Day 6

This day didn't get hard until now. I've had a headache all day long, and this hormone is screwing with my other hormones, so I've been crying just now and I don't really know why. Also, I've been really irritable, but that's supposedly one of the side effects.

I just have to keep telling myself that I'm almost a quarter of the way through the diet. Then, in the stabilization diet (which lasts for three weeks after this diet), I discovered I can basically eat until I'm actually full, just no starch or sugar. I think it'll be okay when I get to that point. Also, I don't think I actually can do this for two months. I'm sure I could stick it out, but I did the math and it looks like if I go for two months, I wouldn't get off the stabilization diet until about a day or so before the wedding. I'd rather be off it sooner than that. I don't want to take a bite of cake and suddenly burst out of my dress. :P

So, I got on the scale this morning and found I'd lost 2.4 pounds. Then I went back to bed. I figure if I'm sleeping, I'm not eating. Plus, I was still sleepy. For lunch I had canned tuna and celery with lemon, vinegar and pepper. I had an apple in between lunch and dinner, and for dinner I had canned green beans and cooked up some chicken breasts with lemon, a pinch of salt (can't have more than 1/4 teaspoon a day), pepper, and sage for me and my mom. It was really good, actually. I might have to make that sometime when I'm off the diet. And for dessert, I had a baked apple sprinkled with cinnamon. It was awesome.

So yes, right now my optimism is wavering, but I can't tell if it's just the hormones suckerpunching it. I wish my weight loss would become more noticeable. Things fit a little more loosely, and I've already lost about half an inch off my waist, but I'm still just...blah. I have to keep telling myself that the first week is the hardest, and supposedly it gets easier. Why does food have such a stranglehold on my life? :(